Been having quite the time with motivation lately....I have none.zip.squat. All of this time on my hands and I don't feel like doing an-y-thing! Someone told me about a year ago, that I should NEVER be bored...I'm too young to be bored.
Okay. So....
I read (within a page)...I'm bored.
I listen to music...I'm bored.
I meditate...I'm bored.
I write...I'm bored.
I do Yoga and stretching...I'm bored.
I practice my guitar or Ukulele...I'm bored.
I get online...I'm bored.
I play games...I'm bored.
I TRY to be artistic....I get frustrated, then bored.
I go on a walk...I'm bored.
I eat...I get bored and don't want to finish my meal.
I turn on the tube to take away the boredom...now I'm raunchily bored.
I try new things....bored.
I try old things....bored.
My dogs are sleeping...even they are bored.
It's windy outside...I'm bored.
I'm breathing...I'm bored.
Even taking pictures lately makes me dreadfully bored.
So....as you can see....I'm bored.
Where does this incessant boredom come from? And where is my motivation to change it?
Growing up my mom always used to say to me, "Life isn't always about fun, you can't just have fun ALL the time."
Well, why not dammit!?
Do I feel like I'm missing out on things, on stuff, on fun, on life...probably.
In our lifestyle, we have all of this freedom (on a pretty tight budget) so there is a LOT of down time. We are still working towards goals to make our budget a little bigger, but there still feels like something is missing.
On our biggest boring days, we find ourselves scouring the internet for bigger rigs...ooing & ahhing, giving us something to look forward to. Living in our van is great...for now, but some days, especially the super windy, cold & dreary days, it's exciting to think about what life would be like in something a little bigger. Something we could stand up in, to be able to put our pants on all the way...inside, to stand up and stretch...inside, to cook...on a table...standing up...inside. What a concept, huh! It's just nice to have something to look forward to.
I mean, right now it's like a dream to imagine this: Get out of bed in the morning, Jamie could sleep in, I'll walk the dogs, come back, put on a pot of coffee and start making breakfast. He gets out of bed, stands up...stretches and we sit down and have our morning rituals together. All of this is going on and we DON'T have to wait until the other one gets up, to make the bed to be able to roll the bed up together (NOT a one person job), so we can start doing anything at all!!!
The thought of moving about a space without having to get the bed out of the way....THIS is what excites me!
I love the fact that we have total teamwork living together in Joon van, but the days that we're NOT on the same page...well, let's just say I want to go back to bed, before the bed even gets deflated.
At least I'm blessed with a mate that can put a different spin on things, that I can talk to, that can make me laugh, that will put me on the back of the dirt bike and take me into town for something different to do. Who also lets me know that I'm not alone...in boredom or in life. Plus, he's SUPER fun to be with!
So, maybe (right now) we aren't having the time of our lives every second, of every minute of every day, but we have one another and if we can keep that in mind and keep on truckin' to follow those dreams, the fun will start to follow us around!
How do you get yourself out of a (looooong) motivational slump? Out of endless boredom? Please tell me I'm not the only one!!!
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...[/caption]Here's to a less boring day and the motivation to change it!
PEACE
