Forget-YOU-Not

A very 'scary' thing happened to me this morning. My computer would not turn on. Well, it turned on but there was nothing there...black screen.  Oh My Goodness! A million things started running through my mind: Our blog, everything I have saved on it, what would I do during the day when there was nothing else to do or everything else was done, I thought of everything I 'needed' to research or look up....All in half of a second a million thoughts...and tears, of course there were tears. My battery started crapping out while we were in Shaver Lake this Fall, it started gradually. My battery notification was on the blitz, my computer just turning off without any warning. I dealt with it by just keeping an eye on the battery icon and plugging it in when it got to about 45% (I found out it shuts off on its own at about 35% with no warning). Then it got to a point where the computer would be on for about 10 minutes, and without warning, it would just turn itself off...grrrrr. Now I can't even turn the darn thing on without having it plugged in first, with the computer reading 0%, plugged in, not charging. Before totally flipping out this morning, J' took a look at it, took it apart, reset it and voila it works again. I love my 'puter and don't want a new one, so I definitely see a new battery in my near future. Let's just hope it hangs on until that happens. All of this happening this morning is what led me to this post. I know I have been 'slackin' on posts lately but it's not because I have forgotten or don't care, we have just been adventuring and some days, I have to admit, are much easier than others. Some days I can sit here and post and catch up all day and others I feel like the entire universe is hanging out on my shoulders, head, belly, feet, hands...you get it!? Making it that much harder to want to do anything at all. This morning when my 'puter wouldn't turn on the first thing I thought about was all of you waiting for that next post and how horrible I felt for not being caught up, what if it doesn't work anymore, what if, what if, what if! This is probably just me feeling that feeling of having to be something, be someone...but I still felt bad. I guess I just want you to know that I don't write my blog, just to write it. I want it to be an experience, I want you to want to read it...it's not easy being cheesy, ya know! haha It takes me forever to write just one post including all of the pictures because I want you to feel like you are there with us. I know some of you are on your own journey already or read this because you know us or are our friends, but I know some of you are not 'out here' yet and really want to be and I want to be able to give you something to look forward to....or even something to learn from...or even just laugh at! So know that even when I'm not posting, you all are always on my mind. I'm always taking pics for my peeps...and it also helps me remember what we did that day! I appreciate every single one of you...I hope there's more than one of you! haha I've also made some everlasting friendships just from writing this blog...so thank you. Thank you for reading, for commenting, for your insight and for your friendship. I have to say our readers are probably the coolest people I know...so thanks for just being you!

Keep shining bright no matter what your sights are set on and know that no matter what happens, with my computer or anything else, I won't be far behind with an updated post!

Have the most fantastical day ever!

Much Love & Peace

Kalani